but, i'm in love with someone else...
Steven..obvs. haha.
all day yesterday steven was allll i talked about. x( so um. yeah.
and Kevin, is being a pain. Lets see...Sunday he was all 'come see me' blah blah blah. and whenever i would ask when, he wouldn't text back. so i got fed up and said nevermind that i had plans. and so later that night he text me "i love you baby" thats the FIRST time he's EVER said that to me...so i was passed out, right. well he calls me like 40 mins later, and i answer, but he hangs up. so i was like wtf? well i fell back asleep and he called again, an hour later. but i couldn't wake up enough to answer it. So i text him back that morning.. I love you too.
now..he won't answer my texts or anything...and its wed. :( like i kinda just wanna cry. i mean really. i don't know whats going on anymore. everything was great, and now its just ugh. >.<>.< (sorry) but yeah, and so it kinda got me all outspoken so to say. cause his voice..its just man, its hot. haha. and idk i guess its cause that was like one of the first things i fell in love with about him. was hearing his voice, since i didn't get to hear it that much. I mean, obvs it was his typing that got me. ;) :P but man, when he'd call and i got to hear his voice, idk. and now its kinda the same, cause we're kinda back to talking everyday. and i LOVE it. bc i LOVE him. ya knows. angel was like if he lived up here, i think he would be good for you. i was like if he lived up here...i wouldn't be here. i was like nah. i'm just kidding. haha. i was like a lot of stuff would be different if he lived up here. she goes yeah, you wouldn't be with kevin, and i cut in and was like nope, i'd be with steven. and wouldn't have this problem. that's one reason i wish he lived up here, or even just closer, ya knows.
10 things i love about youu. :P
01. i love your sexyy deep voice.
02. i love the way you say my name.
03. i love how you call me sweetheart and misspell it every time. (hart)
04. i love the way a smile creeps up on your face, and then brights up the whole place.
05. i love your laugh...esp when i cause it.
06. i love the way you look at me, like i'm the only person in the world.
07. i love that you call me and don't just text.
08. i love the way you make me when you're around..or even when you call/text.
09. i love how you ask about my day, and my life. (roxie)
10. i love all your bad boy tattoos. ;)
11. i love your scars...they tell a story of your past.
12. i love the way you look in a baseball cap.
13. i love loving you.
14. i love the history we have together.
15. i love the way you make fun of me. (whale)
16. i love that i can tell you anything, and you won't judge me.
17. i love that i can be myself when i'm with you.
18. i love the cologne you wear. it makes me weak.
19. i love the way my brain turns to mush when you look at me.
20. i love everything about you.
10 things i hate.
01. i hate that you live 4-ish hours away.
02. i hate that i can't come see you whenever i wish.
03. i hate that i can't be with you.
04. i hate that i don't know how you feel about me anymore.
05. i hate how my mom doesn't even know you but doesn't like you.
06. i hate parts of our past.
07. i hate the way my brain turns to mush when you look at me.
08.
09.
10.
10 things i wish.
01. i wish i was your girl.
02. i wish you were here right now.
03. i wish you lived here.
04. i wish i wouldn't lose my thoughts when you look at me.
05. i wish i was outspoken when you are around.
06. i wish i could say things that i want to.
07. i wish i would have met you before you went into the army.
08. i wish you wouldn't have been married when he had met.
09. i wish you would realize that i'm not like those other girls...
10. i wish my dad was still alive...he really liked you.
10 i'm glad/sorry
01. i'm glad i met you when i did.
02. i'm thankful that you are in my life.
03. i'm sorry i ruined your marriage.
04. i'm glad you came up here every time you did.
05. i'm sorry i can't just up and come see you whenever i want.
06. i'm sorry my mom doesn't like you.
07. i'm glad that you kissed me...even though i was pissed about it later.
08. i'm glad i can tell you anything and everything.
09. i'm thankful your one of my best friends.
10. i'm sorry i can't talk when you come around.
i needed to get those off my chest. i feel lots better now. anddd yeah, i kinda went overboard on the loves. hehe. sorrys.
oh and guess who just text me...oh my boyfriend. see i made you forget i had one, didn't i? yeah. i'm good like that. ha.
ugh.
okays. i'm done.
-erynn
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