ahe. we meet again...

too freakin bad i don't wanna. xD

so bunch of stuff happened since my last update...feels like forever agooo. Steven drove up here in October on Halloween...it was amazing. He stayed the night and i stayed over with him yadda yadda. Then we spent all day Halloween together. He got a puppy from up here and then went back down to Fairfield. loser.
and thennnn, we continued to talk, but shit fell apart and we stopped talking.
So then i met this guy named Nick from MI off of Halo 3 on Xbox 360. soooo yeah. He fell hard for me. and it was all good up untill Steven decided to come back into my life.
And me being me...and Steven being my first love and all iiii went to see him. x( It was during Spring Break and yeah. He came up here at like 2:30 in the morning, and so candi and i snuck out of the house to see him...i know, we're stupid. haha. So then he's calling me for like a week after that, but then he turns suicidal cause of his ex...and yeah. ugh.
Well that was back in like Feb...and guess WHAT?! HE'S BACK AGAIN! x( calling me and whatnot. He was supposed to come up this weekend, but he's not now. cause ya know, he changes his mind all the freakin time...anywayyssss.

on to somewhat ok stuff. (i'm saving the good shit for last. hehe)
Sooo, idk if you guys remember me bitching about a 'Matt' a while back ago..and his wife assuming there was more to what was going on then what there actually was...yeah well he randomly came back right before steven came up here in october. And we were gonna try and get together, but he did the same thing he did last time. so yeah.
Welll...guess who the fuck is back. x( This is recent..like within this week. umm...Candi ran into him and her cousin..and yeah. Well Wed i was hangin out with candi and we went over there...and me..with all this NEW confidence went right up to him..smiling and looking all cute like. hehe. and was like hey! and he goes oh hi. haha. and we talked for a minute...needless to say, it was pretty fun, cause i was so damn calm. i couldn't believe it. haha. So then i turn to walk away...and make sure i'm walking cute-like...you know what i'm talking about..cause i new he'd be watching. haha. So anyways, he was going to get his lip pierced that day, well he wound up not going so they called candi over for her to come do it. So we drive back over there...and haha. She pierced his lip..but ya know..i noticed cause i was sitting on the side of the bathtub that he kept staring over at me. hehe. and he'd smile. xD (me thinks he never got over me...his fault though) so anyways, last night candi tells me that matt wants to double date with me, candi and her cousin randy. welll...i was like wtf? really. cause i'm not doing this shit again. i was like tell him no, cause he didn't notice my hair! and she goes ok. well he said some shit that didn't make sense, therefore i'm not gonna post it. haha. so anyways, ohh sorry, i just remembered. xD i had told candi that matt was gonna have to let me kiss him when he got his snakebites in and they weren't hurting anymore...cause gah. That's just so freakin hott. xD (sorry. haha) but yeah. and so idk if randy told him or not, but the next day he was asking candi how i was and such...soo imma guess that he did. I didn't mean anything by sayin i was gonna kiss him, i just wanted to see what it felt like. hha. and i'm fearless now (except for spiders) and i can just walk up and kiss him. :) butt as for trying to get with me...maybe just to fool around or something, but not as a relationship...well...not right nows anyway. haha.

which brings me to my nextttt line of news. ^_^ i am one happy girl despite all that was going on up there. haha. So kevin my hunny hunny. ;) we're dating now. haha. We had been hanging out a LOT lately and well i just decided one day that i wanted to be more, and so we started dating. last monday, this is the longest we've dated. haha. i full on love life now though. I'm so glad i have him in my life. the only thing is that he'll more than likely be going into the Navy sometime over the summer. which is gonna suckkk hardcore. :( cause right now, i can't stand being away from him, and he only lives 20 mins away. xD haha. but i only get to see him like once or twice a week. which erks me, but its all good. haha. Cause i really am happy. ssoooo anyways...i thought about putting a picture on here of us..but hmmm...haha.

anyways, i might post again soon...i don't know, more about certain stuff..just wanted to kind of get it all out right now. i miss blogging..and need to get back to doing it. haha.

muchh lovee
erynn