.......

He told me....I WAS THE ONE!!!!!!!



i know! shocked me too.
he said "even though i haven't met you, i just have this feeling deep down that you're 'the one'"
yeahhhhh...ha.
and yesterday he said something about giving everything up for a girl (meaning me). i was like wow....just slow down a second. i didn't even know what to say..

oh but when he told me that earlier...i said yeah, but cleared my throat and said it again. and he asked if i was getting teary..ha. i wa slike no.. and he goes babe, why you getting teary? i was like i'm not. he just laughed and said you're not very good at hiding it. haha. i was like its just so sweet...guys just don't talk like that...
geeeeeez louiseeeee!
haha.

oh and he told me to only say what i mean, cause i said 'i love you too'
he said something about it'll be different when he's standing in front of me...i was like do you think i'm not gonna be able to say it? cause i'm pretty sure i'll be able to. but yeah, i guess he thinks my feelings aren't as strong as his? idkk.
we'll see in about a monthh...which with the rate its going..i'm pretty sure our feelings are about the same.
who knows.

but maybe my feelings have changed...idk.
david kind of...complicated things..and now my mom is pushin him on me..idk why, she doesn't even know him. and she only likes him cause i haven't told her the bad things he does..cause i wanted her to like him..but that was when steven wasn't even talking to me...gah. i hate myself. i mean, i wanted too give david a fair chance...but he's going back to New Mexico in less than 2 weeks..and who knows when he'll be back..i'm not just gonna sit around for him..cause he could be gone for a year...i mean, i don't know..
yeah, i understand i've waited for steven, but thats cause there wasn't anyone else there...and steven is gonna be coming back when david is gone..so idk.
i do like david...but i love steven.
and yes, i kissed david..and yeah, it was a great kiss. haha. but still..i don't know.


anyways, and david is fun to hang out with. and i believe he is fallin for me...and yeah, i'm fallin for him. but part of me thinks he just wants sex..so i don't know.
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oh and i'm so tired of people.
i want to go back to austin. haha.
people didn't bother me down there, cause they knew i didn't know...urghhhh.
x(((




laters
<3
erynn