pink trim on them and they light blue. ;)

i'm jammin to Bust it babbyy right now. haha.

hmm.
this blog or post rather is dedicated to a stupid bitch. :)
hahaha.
actually just some things i wanna sayy to her, but can't.
so imma express them hereeeee!!

*clears throat*
Alright listen bitch. I don't want your husband..i never DID! HE wants me. i can't help that. I am in a committed relationship...if you can call it a relationship. The reason i didn't tell you was cause you said you didn't think that you needed to know me, so why should i tell you something that personal, when you don't want to know? hm? alright then.
I'm sorry, that you're husband and i became friends, and believe me, thats all i wanted. YES we went on a "date" but that is because heeeeee called it that, not me. HE asked me if it could be like a double date, i still have the text! Yeah, we invited him and bryan to go, cause we are friends...frrrrriendsssss. and he didn't even want to go, but then told me he would cause i was going, then mentioned the double date thing. i sat there for about 10 mins, then finally said um. well i'm not sure. BECAUSE i am in a relationship, nooo i never told Matt about it, i didn't think he should know. thats my decision who i tell and who i don't tell.
you can see its written allll over my myspace, and he's pretty well all i talk about to my friends. i'm crazy about steven. and i have been for almost three months now. so you can stop sayin all this shit.
and ya know, i can't even understand that you would believe randy when he said that candi was getting me and matt hooked up. candi knewww nothing was gonna happen. i have steven. i felt sooo bad after i told matt that it could be a date, and that he could pay, which i didn't tell him he asked and candi said yeah. haha. but i felt horrible. i felt like i was cheating on him, and which i wasn't cause all i saw matt as was a friend.
and can a guy and a girl not be friends? i have plentyyy of guy friends. one of my best friends is a guy. I love him to death, and always will. and whoever he marrys is just gonna have to accept that i love him and care about him. hell i'm even friends with my best friends boyfriend.

and you wanna say how much this is effecting you life. don't even start with me. i actually go to school, take 14 hours, not much but still enough. i come home to a dying father, who continues to get weaker everyday and we all know what is to come. and then on top of allll that, the love of my life is in iraq, and risks his life every single day for your fuckin freedom. so ya know, i don't wanna hear how bad you have it cause you're husband wants to divorce you. some people actually have it way worse then me. So no i'm not complainin. i love my life, matter of fact and i wouldn't trade any of it, well accept about my dad, with anyone. i smile every day, very rarely does anyone see me cry or upset about anything.
so i'm sorry that all i really needed was a fucking friend, and that person just happened to be your husband. who pushed for a divorce when we became friends. thats not my fault. thats yours. you should have been better to him, and then maybe he would have stuck around. he is a sweet guy who deserves soooo much better than you, and who trieddd to leave you but couldn't do it cause of his daughter. he has toldd me that. yeah, i still have the text, what now bitch.
and really, as the saying goes if you love him let him go, if he loves you he'll come back. mhm. do it. see if he comes back, cause if he does, i'll never talk to him again...and we can forget everything. but if he doesn't. you better believe i'm gonna be saying told ya so. why the hell else would you be fighting this hard with someone you don't even know, and think is stealing your husband, when really she's in love with someone who is half way around the world from her and won't get to see till about august. yeahh, you don't fucking know the whole story.

ohhh anddd your hubby, you think he tells you everything. he doesn't. :)
i know this for a fact, simple because you thought he was with bryan that friday night, hehe, he was with candi, chris, me and klint, another one of our friends. He drove my truck, well haha. attempted to drive it. xD he even got jealousss when klint was messing around and flirting with me. so yeah, he lied. and there is no telling what else he lied about either. i'm surprised you even knew about the other time we hung out, or maybe you don't and you were just saying that, who knows. but really i don't care. i just wish that you knew the truth. and that matt could get away from you, but i see thats not gonna happen. so i'll give up my efforts.

i just needed to say all this, cause its been bothering me.
and i swear if matt calls me at the end of this week, he better believe imma chew his ass out. yeppers. cause i will.
anywhooooo, thats all i need to say.
so lata


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